love, unconditionally.

sherilyntobias:

what a year.

- couldn’t have been better said..

until it hits 12 AM. i’m actually really excited for the first time ever. i think it’s because i know something special is coming for me. i honestly don’t care about new years resolutions, because i never follow through with them anyway. i don’t believe in changing myself JUST because the year is starting over. i start over, when i feel that inside i really have to. when the time’s right. because as of right now, i’m completely content with my life, i’m more than happy with the way everything is. the only thing i want to work on, is my relationship with God. it’s a continuing process for me, meaning i’m always pushing to become closer and closer with him. but anyway.

at 12, after i’m done kissing all my family. i’m gonna meet up my boocakess cause apparently he wants to “talk to me about something important” whatever that may be (; and i just can’t wait to be with him, and find out whatever it is he feels the urgent need to tell me. <3

i gotta feeling that tonight’s gonna be a good night .

anasylvestre:

I met new people

I was in a sixteen candles for the first time ever

I made new enemies

I joined a dance team & fell in love with it

felt paranoid that someones going to take him away from me

I’ve been to the hospital

I’ve spent three days at home

I’ve given second chances

I felt broken hearted

I drove

I snuck out multiple times

my old enemy is my new bestfriend

I lost friends & gained them back

I decided what colleges I want to go to

I still haven’t decided what major I really want

i accomplished getting a lot of shoes

I’ve been to a sweet sixteen without my family

I became friends with the most unexpected people

I had rumors spread about me

I’ve cried up to a point where I couldn’t breath

I quit ballroom after almost 10 year

I fell in love

ohhey 2010, let’s see if you can top 2009. it’s gonna be a challenge (;

- yay ! the one bolded thing in your list is because of me ! (: <333 i love you baby

that night. the one that changed the way we were. the night when we walked down 53rd, arm in arm. me, spilling my heart out to you. no secrets, no lies. just us, and the truth.

it’s all crazy to me now, how far we’ve come in our relationship. how much time has matured our feelings towards one another. to see, and feel the love that’s blossomed between us. and as incomprehensible as our emotions claim to be at times, i revert back to that cold december evening; to the things we bared to one another. it may not have been everything we had wanted to hear, but it was beautiful, nonetheless. because somehow.. beneath the surface of those words, was something more meaningful. something we discovered only a few months ago..

and tonight, i held your hand. like we did one year ago. same place, same time, same feelings. same us; just something, slightly different. no longer is there anything that keeps us apart, nothing between us. no barriers. but the full and honest truth. i know you, and you know me. and well. now we both know that our love will last for as long as anyone can hope for. so without holding back, i looked up into your eyes, right in the middle of times square with the blur of lights surrounding us, and i kissed you.

all i can say is, you take my breath away.. i love you vjm.

(via seanvillena)

just for funsies (;

i’m bout to bust a cap on you, SERIOUSLY.

shansales:

liesellebumatay:

where i feel so lonely. and get really emotionally upset. as if no one understands me. maybe i’m wrong. and everyone else is right. or am i just the only one left with morals and standards. am i the only few left who still listens to my parents, abide by their rules, and not throw away everything they worked so hard for. i don’t like taking for granted what they’ve given me. i know that if they saw me doing what everyone else does now, they wouldn’t be proud of me, at all. i would hurt them, really bad. that’s why i don’t do it. so i dont understand, maybe someone should tell me. why being under the influence is just so cool; why its worth hurting people you love.. maybe its your comfort zone, but it’s not mine.

i dont care what you think. say what you want but, me?

i’m staying above. forever, always. i promised. and im staying true to myself.

Lieselle<3 I feel you 100%. Staying above the influence is the best thing you could do to yourself & your utmost loved ones. Been feeling the same way.

- aw, thanks shannel. love you <3 i really appreciate that you feel my blog.

letmeexplain:

liesellebumatay:

where i feel so lonely. and get really emotionally upset. as if no one understands me. maybe i’m wrong. and everyone else is right. or am i just the only one left with morals and standards. am i the only few left who still listens to my parents, abide by their rules, and not throw away everything they worked so hard for. i don’t like taking for granted what they’ve given me. i know that if they saw me doing what everyone else does now, they wouldn’t be proud of me, at all. i would hurt them, really bad. that’s why i don’t do it. so i dont understand, maybe someone should tell me. why being under the influence is just so cool; why its worth hurting people i love.. maybe its your comfort zone, but it’s not mine.

i dont care what you think. say what you want but, me?

i’m staying above. forever, always. i promised. and im staying true to myself.

you’re such an inspiration. good (:

- thank you schatze, nice to know someone in this world understands me..

keep rushing in, attacking me. this tidal wave of emotions hit me, encompassing my mind, in some sort of ascendancy. i can’t take it. and i feel nothing but incompetent and helpless, to this monster that takes over me. this thing, that deprives me.

i dont even know what to say anymore.

where i feel so lonely. and get really emotionally upset. as if no one understands me. maybe i’m wrong. and everyone else is right. or am i just the only one left with morals and standards. am i the only few left who still listens to my parents, abide by their rules, and not throw away everything they worked so hard for. i don’t like taking for granted what they’ve given me. i know that if they saw me doing what everyone else does now, they wouldn’t be proud of me, at all. i would hurt them, really bad. that’s why i don’t do it. so i dont understand, maybe someone should tell me. why being under the influence is just so cool; why its worth hurting people i love.. maybe its your comfort zone, but it’s not mine.

i dont care what you think. say what you want but, me?

i’m staying above. forever, always. i promised. and im staying true to myself.

2009

2009: In the beginning
Where did you bring in the New Year? home
Who were you with? family & family friends
Did you kiss anyone at midnight? kissed family on the cheek.
Did you make any resolutions? i made a few. i accomplished most of them.

2009: Your love life
Did you break up with anyone? yes
Did you get anything for Valentine’s day? i only remember having a valentine, who promised to give me something. but i never got it. he didn’t mean much anyway.
Did you meet anyone special? yes, i did.
Did you fall in love? yes, i did.

2009: Friends and enemies
Did you meet any new friends this year? yes
Did any of your friendships end? they didn’t end, just faded.
Did you dislike anyone? a little
Did you make any new enemies? im not sure, probably.
Did you resolve any fights? yes, some.
Who was your closest friend? they already know who they are.
Who did you grow apart from? certain people.
Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships? not really

2009: Your birthday
Did you have a cake? red velvet - pink & brown design with a chocolate bow on top. yum.
What did you do for your birthday? sweet 16 party ! but on my real birthday i spent the night with my boo at well-being then went home and took care of baby Josh and episodes of glee
Did you have a party? sweet 16
Did you get any presents? lots.
If so what was the best thing you got? it wasn’t so much a materialistic present, but the love that someone gave to me.

2009: All about you
Did you change at all this year? a lot.
Did you dye your hair? yes, a solid brown color instead of my hazel highlights.
Did you get your hair cut? yes
Did you change your style? got girlier, if anything. i stopped completely with the sneakers, and im more boots/heels
Were you in school? yes
Did you get good grades? ish.
Did you have a job? no
Do you drive? finally i do
Did you own a car? no. soon i will
Did anyone close to you gave birth? my ate. i love my nephew Josh that she has blessed us with
Did you move at all? no.
Did you go on any vacations? florida
Would you change anything about yourself now? i’m happy with who i am.

2009: Wrap up
Is 2009 a good year? overall, yes. i’d say so.
Did 2009 bring any new insights? definitely a lot. 
Do you think 2010 will top 2009? i hope so, 2009 was pretty amazing so idk if it can top it because now im with someone who i’m sure i want to spend my future with.