May 2013
20 posts
Trying to find the perfect words to describe how this feels and what you mean to me. But then I realized, all I would need is you.
You are simply enough.
6 days has felt like 6 years without you.
What will 3 months of summer feel like?
Every fucking atom within me misses you.
I’ve never felt this kind of pain before.
Day 91:
I love you Kevin Hejnas, with all that I am. And you deserve nothing less than everything I could ever possibly give to you.
Heart beats fast. Colors and promises. How to be...
I’m glad you’re excited for summer and ready to go home. Who in their right mind wouldn’t be? You tell me stories of your hometown and all the plans you have for yourself when you return, and I smile and listen and wish you the best. But deep down this unsettling feeling creeps up on me and unlike you, I just can’t feel the same way. You see, I’d miss you too much. I...
It's hitting me
that in a few days you will no longer be by my side every night and every morning. And I’m terrified of distance. What will it do to us? Maybe you’ll come to miss me. Maybe you’ll long to be with me. Maybe it’ll make us stronger. I’ve become so attached to you, I can’t deny you are my life. But how could I ever tell you how I really feel?
Love, attention, and affection are so hard to attain and maintain.
devilinanewdresss:
“That’s the thing about needs. Sometimes when you get them met, you don’t need them anymore.” - Carrie Bradshaw
I've fought
passionately for too many things in this life, and have lost almost all of them. What should make me think I won’t lose you too?
April 2013
28 posts
The hard, but honest truth.
I’ve finally faced what I’ve been running away from for so long. And I don’t want anyone to think this is me giving up. It’s just me finally coming clean about the truth.
Growing up I was always so sure. So sure of what I wanted to be or what I wanted to do when I would be older. I knew what I was good at and I knew that someday I would make it. I followed that for four...
“I’ve always loved you, and when you love someone, you love the whole person,...”
– Leo Tolstoy, Anna Karenina (via ryannxp)
Can I please be yours forever?
Baby steps
towards being happy again, and repairing meaningful relationships.
With you, I have never been so happy. It’s almost unfair to feel as cherished as I do when you lay with me to sleep and wake up still next to me. I don’t deserve this. I have sinned many before you, and I try my best to give you the world and still come up short. You are as amazing as amazing gets; And as perfect as I could ever get it.
I think I love you more than anything I have...
It was chilly out, and neither of us seemed to fit in where we were, but we chose to stay a while. You stood behind me protectively, but gently wrapped your arms around me. Although you had kept me warm, I folded my arms over yours as well, as a sign of my appreciation and reciprocity. The music then filled the air with warmth and familiarity and we soon started to feel a little more in our...
Truths.
I’ve come to hate Tuesday nights, because you’re never by my side. I’ve come to love Wednesday mornings because I wake knowing we reunite.
I’ve come to realize that it’s not that I can’t live without you, but that I just don’t want to.
Can you turn an unemotional person into an emotional one?
I simply want to feel loved and appreciated. That my efforts aren’t done in vain. You never had your heart broken, and you never had to feel as much as I want you to, because you never had to. You’ve had relationships before but they were never real, heartfelt ones that cut to the bone or brought you such joy that you...
I love you
even when you’re distant, and unable to understand me.
Sometimes it will feel like you’re not even with me when you’re right next to me.
And as much as it pains me at times,
I wouldn’t trade you for the world.
Do it cause you love me.
And no other reason.
Rutgers
I’ve been reflecting a lot about my freshman year experience so far. Yes, college had it’s lows, especially for me, but I learned more than I ever could have about myself. I want to believe college matured my ability to connect with myself and my introspection of who I was, who I am, and who I want to be. I also feel freed. My knowledge, judgement, and taste all have expanded by the...
Love is self-sacrificing.
It’s about the other person, it’s no longer about you.
“Watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about love....”
– (via mahalkitax3)
I hope
to be the girl you can see yourself settling down with someday. Not that there’s any rush, but the sole fact that you can picture a life with me would simply be enough. I hope that I encompass everything you feel fondly about when you look back on your day and reflect on the worthwhile things you’ve done. I hope that a little part of you aches when we’re apart, but thinking of us...
You’re perfect in every single way.
Except in the one area I need you most.
What do you do
when the one person you expect to be able to turn to, isn’t there.
Hopefully with enough faith and prayer
I can make the impossible, possible.
To you,
I’m beautiful. And that’s enough for me.
“I think it’s very healthy to spend time alone. You need to know how to be alone...”
– Oscar Wilde (via crowjun)
Dear boyfriend,
As we speak you are currently fast asleep beneath the weight of my tiny frame. I can’t sleep and your nightly twitches aren’t helping. It’s also awfully hot under this fleece blanket; but I wouldn’t trade this awkward, sweaty connection for anything. Not even the twitches. Cause that’s what makes us, us. Weird quirks and all.
If I could tell you...
March 2013
40 posts
If you captivate the heart of a writer,
you will never die.
Your story will live forever.
You are the reason
for my smiles.
for my joy.
and my pain.
You are the reason I wake up every morning
and think to myself
“today can’t be so bad”
cause one thing is for certain…
I always end it with you.
